Day 4 - Peace

Day 4

Today was peaceful. I still think of him.
Wondering how he is..
Wondering what's he doing..
Wondering if he thinks of me...

But I wasn't worry. I'm not agitated.
I don't think of him and reminisce and cry..
No..

No tears today.

I woke up thinking of him, and thanking God for waking me up with such a beautiful thought.
And for giving me blessings that He work through him..

All through the day, I've been keeping my faith alive. Faith that God's got this. Trusting His plan. Believing in His will and time.

I prayed that the Lord guide him to open his heart more to the Lord. I prayed all the good things will shower him, because, he deserve it. He deserve all the love and blessings in the world. He's been there for everyone who needs his help, advice, assistance, or just an ear to listen. He's been there fighting for the country and not many appreciate the freedom he's fighting for.. Yes, he's been through a lot! Relationship failures in the past, broken marriages, liars and cheaters.. His plate is full of disappointing events, but he is a strong man. He just doesn't feel it most of the time because of his bipolar, but he is more and twice the man I have ever met.

So yes, after all those had happen..he deserve a victory. And I pray the he sees that I can give a piece of rest to his tired journey. That I only want to bring love in his life. That I want to share the joy and peace that God blessed me at this moment.

But today,..today was good. I do pray that he will talk to me again. Because I still have faith in this.
But my priority right now is more to honoring God, trying to live everyday by His word. Trying to give other people whatever talent I have to help them. Giving my life a meaning of 'living' instead of just living it day by day, surviving a heartbreak...and live to tell..

I want my story to be different this time. I want it to be more about giving out what I can to others. A help, an ear to listen, a smile, a voice..

Today is good. Still is..
And I want this peace to remain. I am silent and still to God's answers. But I'm working on the time of waiting in the way that I don't waste a minute of my life wondering hopelessly.

I'm silent and still for not interfering with God's plan. If it should happen, it will happen on His time.

I love this peace. I love when everytime I'm thinking too much of him that it will weigh my feelings down, the Lord nudged me and remind me of his greater plans are more, much more wonderful and all I need to do is Trust, have faith and wait.

So yeah..today was a good one.

I am glad that I can rest tonight and give my heart to God and sleep in peace.
I couldn't do this all without Him.

God is GOOD!